Blurred at the Edges

Blurred at the Edges

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 Her plain beauty now blurred at the edges

by terminal exhaustion

while more subtle changes were taking place within

Her heart refused to be healed

and her body refused nourishment…

All the while the voice kept her company,

urging her to accept life's changes,

to embrace the simple treasures of the world,

sunsets, family picnics, the music of nature…

It came as a surprise to notice one day

that she no longer hated the voice

and the things it had to say

and it surprised her even more to realise

that a certain level of healing had begun

somewhere deep within her…

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 now she cried more from loneliness than pain

and She came to realise too

how she differed from the woman she once was

and felt she had evolved to a new level of womanhood

She found it painful to admit

that this quiet spiritual journey

which was so instrumental in her evolution

would not have come about

had it not been for the unexpected death

of her love, father of her children, …

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 While she continued to love him

she came to the understanding

that this new woman deserved another chance,

another chance at life,

and another chance to love…

She had trouble picturing

this new sense of self with a soul mate

but the knowledge that it could happen comforted her,

offered her hope for a future time...

For now she was content to live life

as best she could,

to keep her children safe and loved

and as she moved through the healing process

she gained an inner strength

and came to accept life's changes as they rolled around.;

sharonlee©1999